I cant speak to my mom...?

she makes me feel unhappy abt myself, guilty and scared... in order to avoid all those feelings i am for the first time asked to not talk to her until my problems get solved which is indefinite... i was sick of talking abt my problems to her and hearing them from her... i have always beena cheerful person but i never know having a worrisome parrent can drain ur cheerfullness and how a cheerful mom can add to it...i love my mom, although i know i sound jdugemental of her... but i wish she cud handle her troubles and worries on her own and not jump out of her skin every time i geta little bruise... she makes me feel i cant even have a scratch for her life depends on it... yet i feel so sad and unfair abt her to not be happy without talking to me... i am strict with her cuz i want her to stop treating me like a ten yr old... i feel the reason why no man want to ever hook up with me is cuz i am sucha cry baby... and i have become so cuz she always pamper me... and when i tell her that she feels offended and thinks is that all u give me after how i have given my life to raise u...:( i know she may have a point but i need to be on my own with my man... dont need her involvement... and when i say it out it seems a little selfish... i ahve tried everything it doesnt work... i feel like killing myself so i can stop feeling guilty and be happy abt being myself...